Blessed be ... Blessed Me

I am so fortunate for the amazing people I have in my life I cry tears of joy as I write this. When you think you're down and out there is someone with gentle hands to pick you up and brush you off.
I've always tended to my own wounds but it's nice to have somebody who will be there to help me out. Thank you for caring I am blessed and I only pray I am able to Bless others as well.We all deserve someone who will stand in our corner ...and it's nice to know my corner is full ...jmg☀️

Today was hard...

Today was a hard day fought back the tears and was less then friendly these emotions have me on a roller coaster ride... Trying to fake a smile is the hardest thing for me to do now. I used to be good at it ,when I was numb but now that I'm feeling again you know when I'm happy and you sure as hell can tell when I'm sad. I wish I could drive away from this place. I don't like what I'm feeling right now I hope it passes soon. The air is heavy tonight feels cold on my skin chills me to the bone I want to go home but I don't know where that is

Feeling feelings ...

I have been feeling feelings again ... Where I had lived decades numbed to it all
They joy,the sadness ,fear, happiness , and most of all a respect for myself...
Despair has fled and been replaced with hope. I choose to let the past remain it no longer serves a purpose in my life I took from it what I needed and disgaurd the rest. It's funny how I can cry again
Tears of joy now mostly a true gratefulness of what my life has become.
The growth and forward direction makes me Smile. The amazing connections that being shared and the bonds that are being reinforcered makes me sigh. My girls have a role model worthy of looking up to.. It's good to feel again thank you for being a friend,a lover and my partner through all of this - I am humbled by your love ...jmg☀️

Even the Rain has purpose...

Even the storms as they pass over us have purpose of cleansing out the dirt & debris that hangs over and around us...
We fight to keep our bearing as we are tossed and turned about in the midst of a violent storm yet when it's over and we come out of it we are left stripped of all that had been clinging to us only to be clean,weathered and ready for the sunny days ahead. The point is there is ALWAYS a Bright side it may just take a second to see it. Be tough but stay Sweet . JMG...☀️

Is this what you wanted...

Yes ... This has always been what I have wanted 

An Amazing connection, Friendship, with a Peaceful Comfort 

It has taken time to get Us here and struggles along the way yet I know you feel like my future

I'm truly appreciative for the Blessings that are abundant in my life...yes my cup runneth over

I expect nothing appreciate what I have and look forward to better things ahead for Us

Yes I want this ... Every single Beatiful day ...jmg☀️

Lesson learned...

I made the mistake of giving the wrong people my time , and trusting some completely untrustable people. They Will come off as friends  but have nothing but bad intentions for you.  Always listen to the little voice in your head that warns  it's almost never wrong ... Some of the hardest lessons I learned  had to be learned the hard way. Yet I suppose it was what I needed at the moment to get my attention.

When we're living wrong we become complacent, accepting  of our own bad behavior and poor choices, to the detriment to ourselves and those who love us.  Lessons I've learned is don't trust  all of those who claim to be your friend.  Time is one thing you can never get back don't waste it on those who don't deserve it...jmg🌳

How it feels...

"Is this how it should feel?"
Was a question posed by my youngest daughter ...
Yes my love this is exactly how IT should feel...
 A gentle sense of security , A place that feels like home , and a space that allows you to be who you were meant to be  without judgment ,Even my children feel it.
 Which confirms what I already know I'm exactly where I need to be . May it always feel this way And may it feel this way to everyone that enters Our door . I hope to make you feel loved ,the way I feel loved by you ...☀️jmg

It's a Beautiful thing...

It's a Beautiful thing to Love & be Loved in return ...to find someone that allows you to let all your guards down , your fears subside , your failures and your flaws disappear. To find someone that no matter how bad you messed up they will accept and forgive without holding it against you for the rest of your life.  To be able to matter to Someone that matters so much to you... To know really know and not doubt. To allow yourself to fully be yourself , give yourself and accept yourself with them. My life has not been easy up to this point , but if I'm able to weather this part of the storm and come out okay. I know the hardest part is behind me - Words become Actions , Actions become Truths☀️ JMG

Story of a girl...

There was this story of a girl... Who did nothing to deserve the hand she was dealt. It wasn’t for anyone to suffer what she suffered there was nothing special that set her apart to exempt her from such things. It was in the way she handled it that made her different. On the side of caution and self preservation she turned hard and cold ... She had always been a fighter because it was what was necessary , weakness was never an option. Under the guise of strength ,she lost all of her softness all of her sweetness ,all of her innocence... Some could never be recovered  she had to relearn how to be,the process is long and difficult yet it's a change she chose to undertake. Learning to love who she is ,is the most challenging of all. Integrity had eluded her because of her choices but "no more" she said . You are better than what you're living ,you are worthy of a better life, you deserve to love and be loved ... Do what you say,live what you preach and show respect for those you care for ...because if you change nothing -nothing will change ...jmg☀️

The little things...

Holding your hand when we're just sitting on the couch watching t.v.,you brushing the hair out my eyes,forehead kisses, falling asleep on your chest, the strong but gentle hugs,the way your eyes light up when you smile, how I'm always safe with you,comfortable silence,knowing ... And feeling. ...jmg☀️

She Smiled...

She Smiled at the thing that brought her here
A necessary evil gave her the the ability to see all the things laid out before her.
The birth of a struggle gave way to a Beautiful prospect.
Sometimes it's the fight that shows us what we are willing to risk for that we love ...
And sometimes its conseding defeat and walking away from a bad situation
From bad comes good because of the lessons learned.
Happy to be schooled that I may know what feels right isn't always the right choice but what IS Right will find us...jmg💙