Solitude...

Its quite funny how I find my joy in solitude. I used want to be where the people were and now all I want is to be alone or just in the company of my significant other... That is peace,my home, my resting place.Dont get me wrong I enjoy family and friends but I'm more apt to the simple silence. There is so much about me that has changed and so much more about myself I'm embracing. I am content and can say I love who I am allow myself to be...🌳Jmg

Silence...

In the silence of the night I sat beneath the full moon...longing and remembering things of long gone past . The memories poured over me like rain. So many good times followed by bad. So many smiles ending in tears. Countless gazes turned into glares.  Unnumbered  hugs that leave me cold ... I have to remember just because I'm alone doesn't mean I'm lonely on these silent nights... jmg 🌙

Humbled....

Yesterday I was humbled. I walked up to my desk only to see a kind of problematic patient sitting there with a big smile and she greeted me with joy. I know the look on my face prior to her greeting was not very pleasant ,which led to complete instant guilt. Boom hit one jab to face !!! She had her daughters and said this is my favorite lady here she is so sweet and kind. Pow ... Upper cut !!!
I proceeded and helped her with what she needed with ease as my coworkers were unable to. "She always knows what she's doing and never lets me down " Crack the hook took me down. I had always viewed her in s negative light but I was humbled by the way she viewed me ...I will be more compassionate to the needs of others in every aspect - lesson learned Universe  I hear you... jmg📿

What if...?

What if I told you I miss you every single day... What if I told you I never want you to go away ?
 What if I told you I needed you  ,would that scare you away ?
 And told you all my  insecurities would that ever be OK ?
 What if I gave you my deepest darkest secrets that I've hid,Would it
make you want to leave and your goodbyes would you bid ?
 My strength has been my weakness and my weakness been my strength
 It has carried me beyond any other length.
 So decidedly I have arrived to the conclusion that you're safe , please don't make me regret that I'm giving you this place ...⚓️jmg⚓️

Humanitarian ...

Hope for us all... My Daughter and I were stirred to help someone in need last night on the streets of L.A. But before I was able to pull  over another person got there before us. We were touched that other people's eyes & hearts were receptive to the needs of another human being. It showed us that when you think know one cares a gentle soul steps to give a hand. So we remain hopeful that the seed of kindness lives and grows all around us... Please be mindful of those less fortunate ,that you might be a Blessing in a time of need...🌱  Plant a seed and watch it grow - jmg🌳

Secrets of the Soul...

We all have secrets of the soul that never go past our own lips.

Things that stir our souls in such a way that we carry them with us to the grave.

They linger like ghosts on the edge of the bed ready to haunt us at the most random of times. 

The good thing is by facing the things that haunt us we are less likely to fear as we put a face to the ghosts, a definition to the feeling, and most of all an end to the torture from these things.
I am stronger than the things that could have brought me down. I am lifted by my own strength to profit from things that could have bankrupt me...jmg🌳

Prison of the Mind

 I see you sitting there. What is it that's on your mind ?

Past regret,past loves , past pain...sometimes we become prisoner to our own thoughts.
Do you have people ? or are you as alone as you appear to be.
I wanted to engage but the hesitation killed the chance. I wanted to reach out and let you know I noticed you. That was my misfortune to let you walk away without acknowledging you. Every human being matters and I'm sorry I didn't take a minute to give you a moment of my time ...🌳jmg🌳

TRUTH...

Whatever you do Please hurt me with the Truth and Never comfort me with a lie
If it ever gets to that point...🌊jmg

Hollow Heart...

Her hollow Heart was filled not from the love a man ,
Not from the  Love of her children,not from her siblings, not from her  Mother ,not from her Father,not from her friends But from Herself.
 She does have all of ther above but mostly she has the self-love she needed all along .
The emptiness that used to linger is the longer there.  She can look in the mirror and be content with what she sees it is been a long hard process is not over yet.  She continues to be happy with her choices and knows there are many more good things to come ...hollow  heart no more ❤️Jmg❤️

Rough day put into perspective ...

I was having a rough day after finding out some rather unsettling news. I was angry, hurt, sad and just plain frustrated. It continued that way for most of the day and I was on the verge of tears. And then ...
It changed , one of my favorite people walked in with his radiant Smile he is 89 years old blind, hard of hearing and riddled with arthritis. Yet his energy is infectious and the love that radiates from his being always makes me tear up in a good way. Just like that my perspective changed  I am grateful for the good people I am blessed by...JMG☀️

Make it or Break it moments...

I have been put in make it or break it moments several times in my life. Forced to face the facts by having them put in my face with no choice but to change the situation or let the situation change me.

For the most part this kind of directectness is what I need to take action. It is when I'm forced with losing something I love that creates the urgency. I never want to be put in this situation that causes the kind of pain that can destroy somebody. My goal is to live in such a way that I do what I say and that there is never any doubt of my intentions. I want to be known as Honest ,True and Completely Trustworthy... 🎶 jmg 🎶

Better of Me...

 Sometimes these emotions get the better of me It however isnt a bad thing. It really is nice to feel  emotions again other than sadness.  It seems I cry at the drop of a hat anymore ,when I read something beautiful, when I hear a song that holds good memories, when I look at the sunset.
I push the numbness away to feel everything.  Mostly gratitude and that's where the majority of my tears come from. It is all the blessings that I am grateful for. This life that I'm living is something I had envisioned for many years. Honestly I know it's only going to get better as I have new visions,dreams and certainties. I am a happy & thankful woman...🌱jmg🌾

Connections in life...

Life is about connections.  Being of service,helping those who are in need and being non judgemental. Most days especially the ones I get frustrated over the silly things , I get shoulder checked by the Universe ,which causes me to look up and be aware of my surroundings. It's usually somebody who is great need that gives as reminder how Blessed I am and I become immediately humbled and grateful. Never cease the opportunity to help another if you are able, you will never be sorry. Life is about connecting with others . Leave your comfort zone and think how uncomfortable some people are forced to live and still manage to Smile...✌🏼️Jmg☀️