Deep...

Are you willing to show me deep ,are you willing to show me raw, are you willing to give me everything your weakness and your flaws..? Can you go down the road of seriousness without bringing levity? Will you expose all your fears and decide that you will trust in me? I have been waiting that I might do the same...the question is to be am I the One you allow all in or am I just a silly game?

Simple love...

Do You understand it's the things I love...? A Handmade card ,a heartfelt letter ,handpicked flowers. Your hands on my face as you softly kiss me. Starring lovingly into my eyes ,& whispered I love yous. I ask for very little really. I'm easy and content...all I really want is You All of you...jmg

Gone girl ,gone boy

She'll delete your words ,delete your face ,delete you from the time in space ...delete the soundtrack from her mind ,delete you from where she once could find ...delete the past, unplan the planned as she takes a hold of another hand...jmg

Breaking out...

Having trouble being me I fought to get back to the true essence of who I am and yet the only person that is holding myself back. Is me...I'm struggling with the struggle, feeling pulled under, the undertow in this sea of emotion is starting to keep me here I must do something to pull myself out of the abyss. There is no reason to be feeling this way I'm having trouble comprehending it. WHY ? What is the trigger the for these debilitating emotions ? I can't fool the ones who know me ...they see my mind processing...I wish I knew how to shake this once and for all...I will get back to who I want to be .Breaking out of this once and for all ...jmg

Missing...JCR

Alone in my thoughts... I sit here alone in my thoughts Pen on paper ..paint on canvas notes on strings. .. This melancholy mood finds me missing your company. Missing the sound of your voice ,the touch of hand,the sight of you smiling. Oh how I long for the nearness of you. To be in presence is to absent of sadness you are a joy I delight in you ...I miss your everything everyday ...jmg

Run...

She ran to him with open arms because He held her close yet allowed her to breath...He was comfortable,He was easy ,He allowed Her to be what She needed to be with no pressure...just,a,gentle patient quiet Love -She would always run to Him...JG

Run to or Run from... Fight or Flight

The things I fight for and the things I can let go are the same...I can walk into something and protect what I have to keep it safe or I can easily walk away from any situation without looking back It all depends on the Energy I feel ...feelings do not lie,what the Heart feels is true -Fight or Flight for what I Believe

Wake with me...

The Sun warmed her Soul, she had been chilled to the core. It was therapy for her emotionally emaciated Heart. Gave life to her being, and sparked the fire within her. Awake My love the Sun shines for you He said...

Pacific perfect...《♡》

Ocean of love...

The Sea held her Heart , it was her home the place she would always run to.
she could stay there all day,  everyday surrounded by its healing waves and drown in the beauty of its graceful strength . There was  power in the  pull as shore became more distant.
She didn't care if she never went back all she wanted was to float in the Ocean of his love...jmg

In the know...

Knowing It's funny how I knew you without knowing you. How comfortable I am surrounded by your presence, how in your absence I'm not complete, how your smile gives me the kind of feeling of getting the best gift I'd ever received, how I pictured the future before we ever had any sort of a past ,I just knew I wasn't in a hurry - because I just always knew ...

Musings of my Child...

I love that my Children write also♡

Sunshine & Smiles

Today I drove up PCH the Sun was so warm, the Sky was so Blue and the Ocean was so Brilliant I could not do anything other than Smile. I almost cried because I was so humbled by the Majesty of it all...All I could think was , I'm Blessed to be in such a Beautiful location. May I never take for granted the Beauty that I'm surrounded by. May I always be Grateful...《♡》

Feeling Good...

I am feeling good about my choices, my place in life ,progression of things.
I struggled against things that were for sure , for things that were a temporary feeling. Emotion cannot rule our Mind , but  they can definitely be factored into our choice. It is funny how I was allowing myself to fall back into the place I was with no conscience effort, just going with the flow of the undertow. Guilt can not be reason to stay in somebody's life . A relationship should be just that,
not a noose... I can breath a sigh of relief to be able to move forward.
Everyday I am Stronger, More Empowered,  & Confident in who I am. If everyday we take small steps to be  where and what we want to be ,We can finally leave all the tears of the past behind. Sunshine filled days ahead , and I know that any rain that comes my way  just waters the flowers I will get to enjoy. It' s not always perfect but it is always an opportunity to learn...JMG<11> 

Unsettling...

For some time I was ok with settling for less than what I deserved not that I "deserve " anything but what I mean is the treatment from others. I allowed the main person in my life to mistreatment me,I settled for no love,no respect and no consideration...I continued to exist day to day thinking I was okay.
I was NEVER okay...I was numb
It is refreshing to be at a place in my life that I can accept love,respect and  consideration...I will no longer settle for less -I am worthy ,Thank you to a wonderful man who has given me these beautiful things i cherish and appreciate you ..jmg♡

Wet wool blanket

Sometimes she feels it come over her like a wet wool blanket. Cold and uncomfortable, heavy and suffocating.  She fights hard to throw it off. Only to get tired in the struggle  , she looses the fight on occasion and then regains her strength.  It's in the times when she is down that she is able to regain her composure, think about the next move to get her out of its grips.
Pain brings perspective it gives her the eyes and insight to see Joy... jmg 《♡》

Castles built on Sand

Castles built on Sand never stand the test of time...they are beautiful in the moment,yet they never weather the storm and such is life we get to experience beautiful things, different  people but they all are temporary to show us what we need to shown & ,learn lessons we need to taught
I'm grateful for the things and people that have come and left my life.
Everyone of them bringing a different aspect of learning
Blessed by the lessons and forever changed by the experience...jmg《♡》

We all have a Story...《♡》

Home.. 《♡》

This ...feels like home.Comfortable ,Calm,&  Complete.
A place I can see myself for many years to come. A place I choose to be. Happy and  healthy this is something I thought for sure would elude me . Funny how we all start off as strangers some remain strangers ,Others are engrained into Our Souls never to be removed. You are unforgettable. Certain aspects of my life have been tragic Most are so amazingly Beautiful  --- I am in a Calm period of my life. The demons of the past are  slayed and what remains is The Real Jennie. We will all have baggage the choice however ever is to choose to lug it all around with you, Or to drop it off at the door step of the person who has given it to you...I have unpacked my bags taken ownership of what I owned and have given back what does not belong to me...Living Happy Living Healthy and loving everyday ...JMG*11*

This...

Made me Smile,made me sigh...

What i choose...

I have been blessed many a way...even through the pain I a have endured, it has brought Beautiful Perspective. I try to always find Good in the bad ,Right from the wrong, Joy from the Misery. I'm living Positive making the attempt to help others. We become so self focused we never look at the circumstance of those around us. Life has a funny way of teaching us lessons until we learn from them. I have learned to not sweat what I cant control only to give my best effort if it is not good enough I know I have done all I can and I must be content  with that. As a whole we need to learn to have more compassion and put ourselves in the place of others to fully understand. There are many times I have to check myself because I can easily revert back to the person I don't want to be...I will continue to focus on growth and to be a Blessing to all who will receive ...I choose to see the good in all things-JMG <11>

Things I refuse to Believe...

The things I refuse to believe are many of myself...I have to realize self talk is the greatest or worst thing one can do to oneself. I have to learn to accept compliments as well as I accept criticism, I have no issues with hearing negative things of myself and pretty much agreeing however when I get a compliment ...it is almost the hardest thing to hear even painful to some degree.
Now if I can accept such positive things with Grace I know I have made the growth I'm striving for. I will accept all Positive things sent My way. WHAT WE THINK IS WHAT WE END UP BELIEVING.

Patchwork...

Remnants...

Remnants of you linger in my life like patch work sown into my soul. Bits and pieces perfectly sown to fit into the worn and missing parts of who I am to fill that void. Bringing me back to whole
allowing me to be usable again. The once tattered and torn made Beautiful by adding the bold fabric
of who you are. I have adopted the philosophy of your boldness, to stand out in the otherwise
mundane canvas of sea of gray.  The brightness of your Love is now being worn by me. Happily & with great Pride  Thank You for allowing me to be just who I am without judgment. You have helped to me into the person I needed to be...{11} Queenyjmg