No more shame -

I used carry shame around in regards to my circumstances. I would hide the bruises push down the emotions to minimize them. I wore a fake smile and over compensated to hide my insecurities.
I lied to everyone about my state of being...I learned to live a disingenuous life full of shame and lies.
But now I have released it all no more shame no more accepting the blame for actions that were not mine. I accept the feelings deal with them ,find out why I'm having them and address them. I will allow my light to Shine as it was dulled for too many years... I am grateful I love myself before I love anyone else....❤️Jmg❤️

Hey little girl...

Hey little you're sweet and lovely. Hey little girl you're loved and protected. Hey little girl you're smart and funny. Hey little you're kind and compassionate. Hey little girl you're you're worthy and strong. Hey little girl you're capable and clever. Hey little you're  all grown up...JMG 🌅

Helping Her...

Help she cried, I'm lost and need to find my way home...I remember the road was lush and lined with wildflowers. I remember the Sun shone through the trees onto my face, I remember the smell of the forest as i walked alone on the path. I remember feeling such utter joy I never wanted the journey to end. I remember earning my sleep as I finally reached my destination. I recall the welcome of home as I entered the gate. I remember feeling proud of myself for making the long journey on my own ...She helped Herself because she was her own savior 🌳Jmg🌳

Things I'm looking forward to...

I remember crying myself to sleep not too many years ago ,hoping for days like these. The day I would be free from pain,humiliation, and just complete despair....The things I visualized have come to be and I know the rest of my hopes and dreams for a better life are also falling into place. The house with a Red door,black shutters ,picket fence and hydrangeas growing in the garden. A place to call Home...
a peaceful place greeted by the love of my life with a sweet soft kiss. I dream of this coming to pass. As it has always been a desire for my life . My dreams for Me ...My dreams for Us...❤️☀️❤️jmg

Vulnerable...

I have chosen to be vulnerable to let what I love destroy me...
To give all I am with the possibility of complete destruction. I fear because I have been here before but I hope because I was never here like this, in a positive light. So I'm open to all things good ,I will live in the present tense and allow the situation to play out as it will. I trust my choices . I trust the Universe as it all comes into play- jmg🌎

Changing times...

You are not obligated to be bound to memories ...to be held captive ,to continue to give credence to them 
You are allowed to discard and disregard things that no longer serve
you... You are the author ,the designer and the director of your life. Past is past do not allow a haphazard blue print to continue to be built upon , it was wrong !!! You choose your destiny. Choose love,choose to trust ,choose happiness , choose to love yourself ...
Change begins when you no longer accept being treated  less than what you deserve ... jmg🌤

Missing ...

Some days I Smile because I miss you other days I cry, the impact you have made in my life is immeasurable. The joy I get from your memory makes my heart swell. I always felt loved in your arms and you were one of the men I could always depend on no matter what. I have found a beautiful soul . That has your traits and it makes me smile, because you always told me you wanted someone who appreciated me and now I have. Miss you ,Love you still -11 jmg🌅

Rain...

Met Him on a rainy day - Quirky,Funny, and Calm I knew I wanted more but the question was did He ???
Would He ask to see me again ? Wasn't sure but just put out to the Universe.
There was more and more still. So much more that my days are filled with Sunshine and even when it rains it just reminds me of new beginning. This is my life now... Happy not sad , Loved not hated, Safe not fearful, Protected not abused, Appreciated not taken for granted, Beautiful not ugly,Smart not stupid...and Wanted not discarded. The tide has turned and I'm no longer pulled under but I'm safe on the Shore enjoying it all..jmg 🌦🌥🌤☀️

Stay...

The urge to run away finds me in my most vulnerable moments the thoughts and fears that  permeate my mind keeps me victim to a long gone past. I have made peace with things I could not control but now it's the things in which I do control sometimes give me the most trouble. It's wonderful to have support, it is something I never had the luxury in past relationships. I want to stay present,focused and forward moving and not let the fear of getting hurt keep me from allowing myself to be loved completely I was once told you should never have to fight for love ...because love just happens - so cherish it when it finds you...jmg 🌳

It's Time...

It's time to get serious about the serious things of my life..
It isn't going to last forever ,struggle is a temporary place but necessary. Sometimes it's the struggle which we go through shows us how much we really want something. I want this a new life ,a new way of thinking ,a new way of "being" ... It is Worth facing my fears head on because as I once said "it is a privilege to suffer for the thing in which we love the most" . I accept the help being offered because I can't do it alone together WE will do this ...I love you much ...❤️☀️❤️jmg