I just had thee ah moment I needed. I get very distant when I feel good & too happy. Silly I know when I read the words “too happy” .It just clicked that my children are affected with the same mindset.
I realized after living with a very toxic,abusive,bipolar person that in the brief moments when things were good they would rapidly decline into utter chaos. Duh no wonder why I expect the worst to happen when I’m feeling happy because that is how I was hardwired while I was in the “relationship”.
It’s a hard battle changing my expectation but I understand it now. Every day I am learning things about why I behave the way I do. I’m grateful for the Process of being able to finally heal properly in my time,in my own understanding. Everyday I heal a little more & everyday I appreciate where I am...JMG🌻🖤
