Trying...

Right now I’m trying... I feel like I’m not. Not here ,not there ,not seen or given two fucks about.
I know it’s my responsibility to be ok. To not need for anything but me . I could never depend on anyone to give me validation. I validate myself. I suffer from over thinking. I understand that I can be ok and still fall apart from time to time. Right now I feel the need to flee alone seems to be where I want to be. It feels comfortable and true. I don’t have the need to be placated , my feelings won’t be crushed by your truths. Don’t insult me with sweet lies to choke on. I’m trying to understand my own truths by looking deep into what makes me tick. I thought if I was loved I’d be ok but I now realize I have to love myself the best to be okay. ....JMG