Wish...it away

What if I could wish it away What if I could turn back the hands of time ? What if I would have been nicer to you  What if I didn’t break your heart day after day What if I would been able to hug you one last time  What if my heart didn’t ache What if the missing is my karma What if the last time I saw you wasn’t the last time What if I would have at the very least just said I loved you  What if I could erase you from my memory  What if I hadn’t What if I had What if I owned the power to WISH IT AWAY?

Releasing...and recovery

They say past is past, Sure that’s true but until something of significance happens to you. You don’t have the right to tell me that it doesn’t matter. and I should just chalk it up  water under the bridge.I have  so many things to sort out ,to work through ,to process and hopefully release that continue to haunt me. It’s not to say I’m not working on them. I’m proud of the things I am moving towards but sometimes I’m still this little girl crying out for help. Sometimes I’m a wife just looking for love. Sometimes I’m a daughter who wants to tell her secrets but most times I’m a warrior just trying to survive. Time heals all  wounds they say but really all it does is grows scar tissue over the cuts. Which are hard not to see when you look closely.Softening the hardened scars are the hardest to do because you have to go in and break them down with deep pressure no matter how much it hurts or the scar tissue will never be released. Right now I’m working on the break down ,a necessary evil. It’s painful and agonizing but necessary for recovery...JMG🖤