Thursday, September 29, 2016

Love Affair...

As I walked the streets alone I recalled the love affair I had with this city, this town,this Main Street.
It was a place of comfort and familiarity. Sun rises and sunsets,
Wet toes in the ocean, and the sounds of music permeating the night sky.  Moon lit drives and warm Santana winds running through my hair. Court house steps on lonely nights and Ocean views on morning hikes... I have a new love a new place to call home but you will always remain my first love...🌳🌳jmg(two trees)

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Silent cries...

 I heard her crying in the next room .I longed to comfort her .
 Yet I know this is something she has to go through alone in that moment . It is because I  have endured such pain on a deep level that whenever I see someone else going through something  difficult I want to ease the pain.  For many years I tried to save the world well ignoring myself . My first reaction to my own pain is to shut down. It is very hard for me to stay present when I feel slighted but I will work on fixing me because that is all I'm capable of... 🙏🏼jmg

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Some days...

Some days are harder than others and the end of this day just got hard... My situation finds me crying for you. Feeling like I have no home, lost,stuck, frustrated and somewhat angry. The face in the mirror Isn't me and  The voice I hear is not my own. I don't like this feeling.
I've fought to find myself and I feel like I'm fading fast .... Ugh the cry for help is to myself . Fight Jennie Fight you are deserving of a better way of living...🌳Jmg🌳

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Connections of the Soul...

 It's funny how time and  space can't separate the connection of  certain souls.There are ties that bind and could never be severed. And it's amazing when you haven't seen or spoken to someone in a very long time you can connect with them again and it's like a day hasn't passed.  There are empty spaces in the heart that can only be filled with certain people. The absences of our heart  it's a sad and beautiful thing ... Because in them we find out what real love is. There are people  we are destined to meet and there are people we are destined to love and if we are lucky we will be loved in return..jmg💙

Chasing the sun...

She always seems to be chasing the warm familiar glow of the Sun that kisses her face and leaves her feeling loved... But it never fails as she gets too comfortable in the warmth ,it's a sure thing she will get burned.
Maybe she's chasing the wrong light perhaps it's the Moon that feeds her soul could she have been wrong ? The Sun has always felt so good bringing life to her crying empty soul and as  she closes her eyes and drinks it all in , the healing it provides surely is what she needs to bring her back to true essence of who she is... And in that moment she knows the Sun is the answer for what ails her-The Moon has a silent purpose as it is a rememberance of what was...jmg☀️🌙

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

Current Mood

Just  finding myself in the moment listening to the ocean breeze wrestle through the palm trees, watching the boats coming to the harbor,calm sea glistening the solitude of this place I come to not often enough...but grateful for this time away from it all.if I could only have one other thing  it would be you here with me. My everyday my first and last kiss ... Current mood content - but missing you...jmg🌴

Monday, September 5, 2016

An opportunity...

I thought you were an enemy but i learned endurance from cruelty... I thought you were a predator but really you taught me to be strong, I thought you didn't care but the lesson I found was I didn't need anyone... I believed I was being ignored but what I found was I was happy in my own company...I thought all the pain I went through was because I deserved it yet I found I make my own joy. It is not contingent on anyone but myself so when you thought you tore me down I learned how to build myself up...🌦🌥🌤☀️JMG

Thursday, September 1, 2016

Toxicity ...

I'm done with the toxicity of others I have lived too many days worried about trying to please those who will NEVER be pleased. You can love somebody without liking them. No one likes to be alienated or made to feel judged and it's usually those people who have the who have the most faults are the ones who feel the need to whisper. Speak up or shut up... I'm over you I have the need for positive people - jmg

Vulnerable in you...

Did you feel my love? In that moment held in your arms everything I have I gave to you. Completely open ,you could have slayed me in that mo...